Daniel and I are looking for a house. Actually Daniel, my mom and I are looking for a house. This is one we looked at today in Keller. It’s not going to work, but I loved the exterior and the property. Our wish list is going to be hard to meet, but we have high hopes. At the top of the list:
- 1+ acres for our goats and chickens. Yes, I’m serious
- Large kitchen. This is an absolute necessity for a family that makes most meals from scratch.
- Mother-in-law suite or apartment
- large master with garden tub
- 3000 sq. ft.
- water well
I cannot overstate how much I want to find a place where I can breathe. For me, home is now command central in a way that only stay-at-home parents can understand. I want a laundry room big enough to throw all of the next day’s chores in so I don’t have to stare at piles of unfolded laundry while I am trying to relax. I want storage space so that I can truly experience the old saying, “out of sight, out of mind.”
Does anyone else ever feel guilty when they dream big? As I think about all the problems U.S. families are experiencing right now, I can’t help but feel a little out of step. Katie’s birth made me want to make a difference in the world like never before. Someday (soon I hope) I want to raise money to drill a water well in Africa. Daniel and I have already been able to make a few small dreams come true for children and families around the world. Giving is one of the greatest pleasures there is in life. And yet, there are some things I want for myself and my family. I know in my mind it isn’t wrong, but it’s hard to ask for my little piece of Eden when children are literally praying for daily bread. Sorry, didn’t mean to get so heavy.
On another note, Katie has begun saying “no.” She’s 14 months old. Sheesh.